Well,my younger bro finally hav gotten his bike 2day...went to sri rampai, n got him an Exitway fixie...for rm680,its quite a nice bike (with bullhorn n Radius brakes - which will be removed very2 soon,kan2?..hahaha)...went to Saujana Utama for a test ride,n he seems pretty satisfied with it...at least i've gotten myself a riding partner to ride around my house...
p/s : blaja skid wei..hahaha.....
nway,heres my bike specs,havent got the chance to write it in my previous entry...
Frame : Proton T-Sprint Ratio : 38/16 (which is quite nice ;))
thats bout it i guess...haha...since my other parts is normal one only... ;)
For the Exitway..it comes with 38t chainring also if im not mistaken...52cm size frame... ;)
I'm sorry im such a burden.... I dont deserve to be part of what is already perfect... You guys dont deserve to be treated this way...you guys are perfect the way you are.. while im not...
i know sorry is not enough...you guys have heard that plenty of times already... i dont know why i keep messing up...
i love you guys so much more than anything in the world... but,i always keep on disappointing u guys...
think its best if i part away...so i wont keep on disappointing u guys anymore... You guys have done so much by raising me...n im very thankful for that... I am,..really sorry... I dont know why every decision i made ,is the wrong one... I keep on falling on the same mistake over n over again...
I cant bear to see you guys get hurt again n again by me...i really,..cant...you guys matter too much to me...
Well,sprayed my bike to flat black...changed the chainring to 52T and 18T cog...im not really sure if that is a great ratio..if any of u know please do let me know eh as im new in this thing... ;) but so far with that ratio,it feels great at long distance straight road...but still,i get tired easily..n as for the braking..fuhh,i nearly had my first accident with a bus..haha...really need to learn to skid braking lorr...or maybe even fixed a brake?..hmmm..what do u think?..... ;)nway,thingking on changing a new pedals,straps or toe clip maybe...saddle and seatpost...hav to wait for my next month salary tho'.. ;)
Well,got my new bike in blue impreza on body and white on rims...riding it,is harder than i thought....well,on the braking part that is...havent quite learned how to skid..(damn u alip,haha..)on the 1st day,went riding from Kota Damansara Shell right to The Curve with Aliph,...it was so much more far than i thought...but it was a great experience tho'...on the 2nd day..we(me, padi and alip) went to Putrajaya for a ride...it was so much more relaxed ther as ther were bicycle tracks ther...nway....its a great bike,a cheap affordable bike..so i cant complain much,but i should say,its a very affordable-good beginner bike.. :)
Ahhh...so very tired....been working like a machine for the past week,..wat to do..gotta do what i gotta do...design been amended here n ther,this n that....right to left...left to right..up to down..black to white...fuhhh....sgt lah penat..(sekarang boleh "rojak") ;) ....nway...semuanya da siap and setel...tinggal mock up saja perlu dibuat...then,its home time..and mc 2morrow...hehehe...
HEADS UP - FIXIE : DEFINITION
A fixed-gear bicycle (or fixed-wheel bicycle, commonly known in the USA as a fixie) is a bicycle that has no freewheel, meaning it cannot coast — the pedals are always in motion when the bicycle is moving.
The sprocket is screwed directly onto a fixed hub. When the rear wheel turns, the pedals turn in the same direction.[1] This allows a cyclist to stop without using a brake, by resisting the rotation of the cranks, and also to ride in reverse.
Track cycling in a velodrome has always used fixed-gear track bikes, but fixed-gear bicycles are now again used on the road,[2] a trend generally seen as being led by bicycle messengers.
*thanks wiki :)
Lets continue,
Nway,got a new interest recently...BICYCLE :) ...rase macam perlu exercise,sudah terasa sgtlah gemok sekarang...nanti nak kahwin gambar gemuk x best la pulak...x gitu?....parents will be happy,n my confidence will rise up along with it... :) ...nway,figured out that by cycling,with frens of course...could loosen up lah my malas towards exercising my ass...decided on a FIXIE, or a road bike...nak beli MTB terasa sgtlah mahal(oc cozlah sebab nk yang branded,bukan belagak..but quality)...so a fixie is all i can afford for now...nak main downhill,tulang belakang sudah tidak mengizinkan,yes...i hav a condition.....so ill stick with a road ride for now..... :)..below are just a couple of color scheme that maybe ill apply to my bike...gonna place an order by 2morrow...still havent decided on which color scheme..some help maybe guys?..enjoy,if u want to..n if u dont want to, i dont fucking care... ;)
Last word (off topic,but what the hell) : *ignore me and i will ignore u.... *deny me and i will deny u.... ..seems fair right?...tired of being "too nice"?...i wont trust your "kind" anymore...too freaking tired... ;)
Its a brand new day..a brand new start...i don't need you hypocrites...stay away,very far away...judge me..hate me...despise me..I DON'T FUCKING CARE..not anymore..say what u want..i have my own way on handling things..let me be alone..im used to it anyway...LIE,LIE, and fucking LIE some more!!!...stupid...cant u just face me and tell me the truth?...idiot... :) ;) (: (;
Just because im not talking doesnt make me stupid... Just because im not like you doesnt mean im not normal... Just because u said so,doesnt make it right... Be who u r,not what others wants u to...think,..use ur brain...
What goes around will comes around...you'll see...
The world may not be fair..live with it,stop complaining..improve urself,make the best of ur "present" situation...that is why it is call "present" in the first place,its a gift..every new day is a gift...be thankful for what u have,not for what u dont...or else,u might end up losing evrything u ever had...
Im not trying to be clever,..but it is what it is..live with it...more complains will get u nowhere...
THINK...think hard,and u will eventually get it...
Song of the week :
Maybeshewill - Last Time This Year (UK)
Post-Rock / Instrumental
Pg.Lost - Pascal's Law ( It's Not Me, It's You! - 2008 ) Sweden
Post-Rock
Daylight Dies - Lies That Binds ( Dismantling Devotion - 2006) US
Death/Doom/Melodic Death Metal
Lyrics :
Deafening Quiet That falls on Blind hearts Unspoken Implicit These words so
Faithless Are the lies that Bind us With truth Disclosed by silence A fragile trust Weathered and lost
Time may dull But will never heal Scars hewn by Unspoken deception And wordless honesty
Leaving nothing But a broken life A shattered lie And all we had Lost
Time may dull But will never heal Scars hewn by Unspoken deception And wordless honesty
Anathema - Summernight Horizon ( We're Here Because We're Here - 2010) Liverpool
Doom/Death/Gothic
Lyrics :
In the moonlight In the moonlight's pale embrace We come to know the space between us The space between us
Dreamlight Dreamlight comes in waves (The waves within us) To know the space within us The space within us
In blood red skies Mind takes flight (the sky is falling) Oceans rise Worlds collide To know the space between us The space between us
Fly In a dream so high Feel so alive The world is like a jewel in your eyes One life Feel it
In the moonlight The moonlight's pale embrace (Embrace the feeling) There is no space between us No space between us
In blood red skies Tears run dry (the sky is falling) There is no space between us
There is some times in life when u fall down,and u feel like u dont have the strength to get back up..do u think u have hope?..if u failed 100 times..try again 100 times...its not the end..it matters how are u going to finish..r u going to finish strong?..try,and u will get the strentgh to get back up..the human spirit can handle much more than we realize..the challenges in our life is there to strengthen our convictions,they are not there to run us over..be thankful for what u have,not bitter for what u dont.In life,u have a choice...choose BETTER...forget BITTER.No one likes to be alone,..so go ahead,do lie,escape or even avoid it,in the end u cant lie to yourself.In this life,everybody is destined to be with somebody,if u give up now,do u think it would be fair for your soulmate who is waiting for u sumwhere in this world?..come to your senses..stop complaining,we all been through that..its not the end..be grateful..karma is ther to prove if u dont,..do/accept good things and good things will happen/come to u,do bad things..well,u do the math.. ;)
im not trying to be harsh..but its the facts and truth does hurts...life itself is not fair already,try n make the best of it...thats the least u can do.. ;)
Its a brand-new/different Anathema guys...better than before... Its a beautiful song...feel the lyrics.... :)
Suddenly... life has new meaning Suddenly... felling is being
And you shine inside And love stills my mind like the sunrise Dreaming light of the sunrise
And you shine inside And love stills my mind like the sunrise Dreaming light of the sunrise Dreaming light and ...
I feel you but I don't really know you I dreamed of you from the moment I saw you And I've seen the sunrise in your eyes The sky... the sea... the light
So live your dream beneath the northern horizon Be at peace, set your heart in flight again For the light is truth... The light is you...
“People so seldom say I love you And then it's either too late or love goes. So when I tell you I love you, It doesn't mean I know you'll never go, Only that I wish you didn't have to.”
“When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.”
silly me...silly me...silly me...what were u thinking "aiman"?...
it was just an "real-life" illusion after all...i guess..i'll just stick to the dream then..its the only amazingly beautiful memories i will ever have of u..of us.......
im too tired..too tired to play this kinda games...i need an end...i need a "perfect ending" if there is such a thing...
nevertheless...
u know i will never leave u..not now..not ever...u know i wont do what "THEY" did to u in the past...im not,like that..."YOU" know im not...its just..it hurts too much to be real this time...
I hope because i care... I cry because it hurts..
you hurt me...i know it was unintentionally..i know u didnt do it on purpose....but it does..still hurts....
I'll tell u this "*****" ,i'll keep waiting...u know i will...just tell me when u're ready..i'll be here..waiting for u at the end of the road....i promise u that...
Thanks GOD...it was a great test...maybe,through this...i'll become a better person...
Oh...something woke me up last nite,...it was a miss called,from you...just wondering what is up,called you back but no answer...went back to sleep...and i had a dream right after that.....it was you and me..happily together...the best dream i had ever have my entire life...it is said that in real life,things will happen the total opposite of your dreams...well...if its not meant to be...for me to be with you,for you to be with me...at least,...i did..have a dream about it...which is,i guess..is enough...but that is if we are not meant for each other...i do love u so much,its hard to let go...
oh..i feel so left out right now...so stupid..so confused....
what do u want actually?...
do u really care?..
do u really have me in your heart?..
do u really remember me?..
do u really like me?..
do u really love me?..
do u really care for me?..
do u have someone else now?..
what are u afraid of?..
i wanna be a part of your life...but you wont let me now...y is that?...everything,is not like before..i want it to be..i wish it to be..but its not...why is that?...there's too many "WHY?" now...i do..love u...i always have n will always do..really...but its the same from your side...is it now?...or is it not?...i need...i have to know...talk to me..i need closure..dont left me hanging...
im so freaking tired...jez say "YES" for yes...n "NO" for no..its that simple...dont twist it around....
tired...so very tired.....
YOU, by all shud know i dont like to play around when it comes to this matter....
Hoho..now this here is one cool ass trucks!!!!...check it out...its a heavily decorated truck most commonly found in Japan.With neon,ultraviolet lights,extravagant paints,shiny stainless or golden exterior parts.Now,how could u not love that rite?!!...check it out..wish i could have one..hahaha....
Its been almost a month i worked at this advert/event company...time pass by too fast...nway..here r some of the works i've done...its been fun working here...no stress at all...evryone is funny as hell...haha...especially my boss...paddy,u know wat im talking bout..hahah.... ;)
An average guy..very liberal n very open about things...very patient..stay if u like wat u're reading..leave if it bores u..its that simple..evry type of opinion is welcome..but,no need to condemn my writings...enjoy.. ;)
